- Forever Alone (Yeah, good titles are hard to find. Better copy one) -

Gaah, what do you do when this girl you really liked got their ex-bf back? Especially when the ex-bf is a good friend of yours?

There are 24 days left until summer vacation. In the very beginning of April I met this girl that I felt was the One. Suddenly - she wasn't. When I read that she and her ex-bf was starting to get together again my whole impression of her changed. First time we met (and humorously tragicomic(?) the only time we've met) I thought it was sweet of her to just look in the ground.

We had this conversation on a chat program. To say it this way:


What in the world am I doing wrong? Everyone just want to be friends. And we are good friends. We talk a lot. But why no longer? What's wrong with me? I asked my ex-gf about this. She said I was trying to hard. So I went into a laidback-mode. DANG! It flipped. There was this really amazing girl that I've written about earlier. We're "just friends" now. As all my other flames I'll guess she'll quietly fade down and be forgot - or at least be left in a bubble which is broken by the next time we meet by saying "Hi" to each other followed by awkward silence with no chemistry to each other. Not that both of us actually is talking very much...